A Grief Observed

C.S. Lewis does a great job showing all his thoughts going through the mourning of his wife that was lost to cancer. It just goes to show you how depressing it can be for someone when they lose someone they love. I have lost two of my cousins in the past 6 years to leukemia and the other died in a car accident. I was somewhat close with each of them, but I was not close to the point where we knew a ton about each other. I could not imagine what people go through when they lose their husband or wife to cancer. This death that happened in C.S. Lewis’ life pretty much ruined the rest of his life, because he did not get over it and he chose that he did not want to get over it. He believed that it would be disrespectful to H if he tried to move on and get on with his life.

My dad told me that his brother or my uncle married a woman and then in the first few years of their marriage she received cancer and died. My uncle probably mourned for a while, but he ended up going on with life, married again, and now has three children. I never asked my uncle on how he made it through that tough time in his life, but I bet most of it had to do with his relationship with God. I think that if you try and go through a tough time in your life without God, you will probably end up losing yourself and lose your focus in life. I hope that I never have to go through anything like this in my lifetime, but if I do I know that I must rely on God for help otherwise I will lose myself in anger or sadness like C.S. Lewis.